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Bonn

Even though life can be a bit boring here, I'm enjoying my time in Deutschland. I'm getting to live life. No work and very little class makes me happy. I get to chill. I met a new sprachtandem partner. It's kinda awkward at first to meet people like that, but I need to make more German connections. Chris, the Nigerian/German med student, told me about her. Her name is Tina too! I'm also glad the people in my dorm don't suck. Karma and Maciej are awesome to hang out with. Their fussball team ain't so bad either. Hanging out with a bunch of cute German guys never leaves you feeling blue...even though today it was so freaking cold and rainy! It sucked! The fussball field was completely wet and nasty. But Yao and I of course had fun watching the game. And afterwards, as the guys were showering, we went into this gymnasium that's right next to the field and there was a dance class going on (for 40+ couples!). It was SO cute! The lady who was teaching told Yao an…

So ist das Leben...

Well folks, my heart is officially kinda broken. I don't know why I like such idiots, honestly. Or why I think I have a chance with such idiots. I guess the reason my heart is kinda broken is because I always seem to disappoint myself. I always think I'm smarter than that. That I should know that many guys are shallow and only like pretty girls and like to have sex with them. That they don't like girls who they can actually connect with. But why does that surprise me? The Germans are so different about their attitude towards these matters. But I would feel cheap if I just went around sleeping with people. Even the ones I really like. I don't care what the guy thinks. I know that I'm not comfortable with having sex. Partly because I'm shy and scared, but partly because I haven't found the right guy. And especially after tonight, I know I haven't found the right one.

But it's so confusing because he kept telling me how cool I was and how I'm so op…